Old Habits Die Hard

Ok so I said New Years Day was officially my last post here but have noticed some havent updated thier link to my new site so thought I had better keep in touch here occasionally just a reminder Im still around. Not to mention the comment spam that has drawn me back a few times. So while Im here why not have a natter hey .. just so you know Im still around.

Im quite over arriving to find the anonymous comments offering my readers links to amateuer sex cams and live nude girls who will NOT really do all those things you may or may not wish for. No Im sorry you wont be finding that crap staying linked from here. So to ensure my readers dont suffer it even for a few hours I have turned on comment moderation to stop the spam crap landing here.I seriously dont know why people are so horrible to do such things. What if this was a kid who owned this blog? Just disgusting behaviour from those who do not stop to think about the actions they take and the effect it could have on others.I realise that it may just be a bot too.. but I still deplore those people who set it in motion to begin with. Thoughtless twats! Our children have hard enough time staying innocent and enjoying their childhood... what little we adults these days tend to allow them to be. Ok so Im not a kid writing, and I dont think I generally attract too much reading from youngsters .. but still even I find it offensive to turn up to ... and trust me ... I worked in a strip club for 10 of my younger years (no not stripping, a clothed waitress - and yes both top and bottom clothed) so have seen enough to know Im no prude. It is about the one big down side to the internet I feel.... we know its out there if we want to watch it ..  but thoughtless, greedy and immorally senseless idiots push it in our faces .... and theyre ill enough to say its advertising and argue they have that right. Sorry I do wish we could go back to censorship of nudity, sex and all that. We know its there .. its human nature and how we create more of us screwed up units of human beings, and thankfully still a few good ones ... but my point being the AVERAGE being would still like to keep things like that as a sacred and intimate part of life. Not have it flashed in our faces like its the next best beer on the market. Oh well what can you do? Not alot I guess. We know what a touchy subject a debate internet censorship can get to be... Ive had a few on occasions. 

Outside that life is plodding along. Things are starting to settle after so many months of indicision, stress and all sorts of  issues that Ive faced (wont bog you down with the story, too many hiccups and crap all over the shop) ... needless to say Ive had an interesting run of life, alot of time really alone, lonely with some very steep learning curves. I have learnt many things about myself amongst other things. The hard yards are far from over as far as piecing the old life stuff together and getting on my dancing feet again like I used to be but hey .. at least I know what I had wasnt as bad as it seemed, neither are the changes to every aspect of my life .. but having gone through what I have this past year I will be thinking twice before condemning where Im at.

Dont forget to update your links to my new site if you wish ( I sure hope you continue to support me in my new home as you have here). I wont be deleting this site as it exists ... and well I guess I may make a post here and there if the urge takes me ... I should have known to say officially I wont write here again would be too hard a habit to break even if I do have a sparkly new place surrounded by the music I love for my writing to live. Guess Im not one who breaks some habits easily, especially when it has been one that has given me so many good times  and smiles in return.

MAIN SITE ADDRESS
http://missimi.weebly. com

DIRECT BLOG ADDRESS
http://missimi.weebly.com/obscure-labyrinth-blog.html

I really hope to see you there.

Take care beautiful people

xox-Missi-xox

HAPPY NEW YEAR ANNOUNCEMENT - links corrected

*I updated the new site pages and forgot to update my links here yesterday ... I apologise if some of you found the page not working error. I have since updated the links to my new site and blog, tested they are all working and linked to the correct address. Looking forward to seeing you at Mi new web home. Enjoy*

I hope you have arrived in the New Year safe and sound.

I wont be babbling on here too much today .... I have decided that today will be the final blog entry here *sniff* .. but dont worry .. its only at THIS address. As I mentioned recently Im moving my blog to a new home. First day of a new year and a new beginning. I really dont see the need to have 2 blogs going.

I thank you all for taking time to read and to those who take time to leave a comment. We all have a busy time of life so it is appreciated when every single one of you drops by and spends a little time with me.

For those who would like to continue following me the direct link to my new blog is

http://missimi.weebly.com/obscure-labyrinth-blog.html

You can copy and paste it into your address bar
 or simply CLICK HERE

For those I have linked to from here you may notice to start I havent linked to you yet at the new site .. but not to worry, bear with me as I am still putting it all together and I will be re-adding you within the coming days to the new blog to keep following you too. Im not leaving you behind :-) .

 Well thats it from me from here .... I hope you join me at the new address.

I have something nice to greet you with over at my new blog to start the year. Smile Beautiful people! 

I hope you will join me
Cheers to a great year ahead

YEEHAH!

Things n Stuff

Firstly ... I know I have posted this before ... but I am listening to it at the moment and just LOVE LOVE LOVE this song.

scottish men are too hot!

*sings*

* I WAS PERCHED OUTSIDE IN THE POURING RAIN

TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF A SAIL

AND I'LL FLOAT TO YOU MY DARLIN

WITH THE EVENING ON MY TAIL

ALTHOUGH NOT THE MOST HONEST MEANS OF TRAVEL

IT GETS ME THERE NONE THE LESS

I'M A HEARTLESS MAN AT WORST BABE

AND A HELPESS ONE AT BEST *

Ive also given a listen to this guys other work and have been impressed with just about all of his music and ...
err no I wont say that out loud ;-) . I have added links to Mi Playlist to all the ones I am growing a love to listen to.

Ok so that moment is over .... With my break away I gave a lot of thought to my online activities. I've seemed to have given up on all the money making programs and efforts. After the whole PAC FOR ALL and PAC RS I have just lost my drive. Recieved an email last week giving me hope of gaining my profit minus the initial outlay which thought was a great offer of the ladies ..... it does seem like they have been trying to sort things out so more can win as opposed to losing, but Im glad I didnt get my hopes up too high seeing my member number and amounts due to me. Would have been a real nice bonus to get right about now, but no payment never arrived and todays email stating their "new" games attempt has fallen on its sword already. After the first 2, I wouldnt have touched the new programs even IF I had been paid to do so. Over all I did make far more than I lost online in the end and still have a few bucks floating around there in cyberspace to pull into the real world, not much but better than a kick in the bum. Maybe I will find renewed inspiration and drive to make money from my computer again *shrugs* who knows what comes around the bend in life hey.

I am really liking the new weebly site Ive been using for Mi Playlist. I am even considering paying for an upgrade with them soon to get full features. I like blog.com ... its the birthplace of my blog. I never had a thing to do with blogging nor did I even understand the concept of it until about it until I started hunting online money making opportunities a few years ago. You can blame Blondie and JS for my hogging of data in cyberspace with what I lovingly refer to as random crap (I dont mean it as negative as it sounds). Useful, entertaining or not, this has most importantly re-introduced me to reading more than a text book and writing again for fun, not to mention a few good friends. Ok running off my original point here ... being about making Obscure Labyrinth a new home on my new site. I was originally going to keep the 2 blogs separate, but with thought dont see the need for 2 blogs when I got a big year ahead with the real world - lots of changes are coming I can just feel it now so need to simplify a few other areas for myself. I plan to make the move from blogger within a month and will post the direct link to my new blog address once I officially stop writing here and take over there if you would like to continue linking to and/or reading my randomness and hopefully some of the music that will surround it.

Before I go with my next distraction I just wish to make a special mention of a VERY interesting read over at JS blog on christmas (the BLUE writing). He has plenty more interesting stuff there to look over if you can take the time.

Keep smiling my friends .. til next time

Single Life

A few thoughts from my perspective .... 

 I have been single for a number of years now and have probably been single on average more than I have been involved in any serious long term relationship.

As a single person there quite often comes a few standard questions from others who are not. Questions like .... doesnt it get lonely? Why are you single? Why have you been single so long? oh and the famous What are you looking for? just to mention a few .... then come comments from people who Im sure mean well who offer up a meeting with this single friend or family member just at the answer "Im single" or that old cliche to make you feel better " oh you will meet THE ONE one day when its right", assuming you feel down about being single. Intriguing I find it all really how people think about single life versus being in a relationship. The more I come across these scenarios the more I think about it all. I do once remember having the cliche dream of finding the one, getting married, having a traditional kind of family as it was being taught to me to think and dream of at the time  .. but life went on and of all the dreams its the one thats never had major importance for one reason or another in my life and have to say may have even disappeared from my list of things I want to do, not sure .. life just carries on with little thought of it mostly. m sure there are benefits to finding that one loving, loyal being to share your times with but not so convinced that it is the be all and end all of things to have.

I find it interesting from a few angles, one being that when someone is not single it is not common place to ask questions like, Why are you married? It is instantly assumed you are lucky and happy and complete for having "another half" even if its far from the truth that you are lucky or happy where you are in your life with your partner, theres no offer of consolation like "there, there, I feel for ya, you will be single one day and I have just the pub to take you for your single life celebration" ... I mean ... in my life I have heard  far more complaints about (and met more) unhappily married people than I do hear of happily married or for that matter unhappy single people, (dont get me wrong I know there are those who are both happily married and unhappily single too) to me its intriguing why its always interpreted as a downer being single in alot of non single peoples eyes. Im sure most dont mean the oh theres gotta be something wrong with you way they put some things. Were us humans really designed to be committed, monogamous animals by nature anyway? Im not always convinced we are.

I ask ... is there really such a thing as THE ONE? Maybe there has been for some .. but really what does that mean. I have met a few who possibly could have been THE ONE, but now will never know .. and a couple I caught myself wishing I had more chance or opportunity to find out if they could be THE ONE  in brief moments .... but how do you know for sure? What if THE ONE destiny intended isnt what you want? What if there isnt ONE person who can give you what you need or want long term? What compromise is fair to make of yourself to allow THE ONE in your life? If you decide someone is THE ONE .. how do you know you wont miss the real ONE?

Answering questions in my view. Does it get lonely? .. yes and no .. I have been lonely in a relationship before and nowhere as happy as I am now, so really its a grey one to answer. I am one of the fortunate ones who love my own company and time to myself to do as I please. I have friends, dont fear the outside world and not socially challenged so really theres probably more no I dont really get that lonely in the answer than there is a yes. Im often far too curious about too many other things so dont really allow myself time to think about things that could possibly make one feel lonely to be honest. Independance is something I have always considered a gift to have and not been needy of another human around me constantly to function happily. In fact with some previous experiences Ive learnt I cant stand compnay 24/7. It irritates me to not have ample space and time to myself.

Why am I single? Why have I been single for so long?  ... like theres a reason. I just am. Its not through lack of opportunity or lack of meeting people wanting to give it a shot. Its a lack of saying yes and making time to spend with ONE particular person. Missi - shortened from Mission Impossible - is one good description and nickname that was given to me from one who tried to get me to say something other than no thanks for numerous years. I have come aware of the fact that Im plain selfish and happy being so for now. Its not an unkind sort of selfish, friends are unselfishly welcome in my world. I genuinely care and think both deeply and dearly of those few who I've share an intimate attraction to and those I call friend .. its just that I only think of my girl and myself in my big picture plans for the present moment. No reason, to borrow a term it just is what it is. Not saying I couldnt or wouldnt make room to think more of including another ... its just not a big thought on my mind to do so. I guess I dont feel dating fulfills many needs I have so dont think of going to such efforts. 

I guess that also kind of answers What am I looking for? ... Im simply not looking, my eyes arent closed fully but I cant say seeking someone is something on the list of things Im doing ..... I have considered at times what I would accept and the qualities I would like in a person if ever I was intrigued enough, but I dont seem to get intrigued very often at all. Sorry to say when guys open their mouths to speak on that level quite often I return to the music in my head. The few times I have been intrigued enough to do more than dismiss the whole idea immediately if not sooner, although gorgeous qualities and beings in their own ways, they just havent managed to keep me that way for one reason or another. Whether its a fault or not I walk away from difficult relationships far too easily as in my mind life is far too short to be spending years trying to "fix" something that in my mind shouldnt be hard work. I guess I have the opinion that a good relationship with someone should never seem like hard work. If theres more effort, tears or pain than laughter on average then I can think of better things to do with my time. Life is far too short and why live for that kind of destiny regardless of what it represents to the outside world. Also if your not going to be my best friend above all else you have no chance. After all what is a relationship? Its only a deeper form of friendship with a committment to not be sharing or getting your "benefits" with others in my eyes. Ive found that can be a bit too black and white for some, thats ok we dont all have to think alike.

You know the more I think of it I wonder if I even have what it takes in me to have one of those relationships that others are always aspiring to have ... that whole getting married, committing to one person ....  dont get me wrong .. its not a negative thought, its a realistic question of myself. Looking around at those in relationships, what I hear of and the things I think Im so glad I dont have to deal with.The lack of allowing room for such an idea to develop much in my life. The lack of interest in the whole "dating game". I guess I just dont need another human to feel complete and happy.

Im still intrigued why being single is viewed from an "awwww you poor thing" angle from some .... I see many benefits to single life that make me think that way of unhappily attached people. I wouldnt trade my single life for a mediocre relationship if you gave me a millionaire lifestyle.

Merry Xmas

Ok so its a day late for us Aussies but hey I made it. A big merry christmas to you all ( an extra big hug to a certain someone .. from your wee pal ;-) ). I hope you and yours all had/ are having a great time. What did you all get this year?

Mine was a quiet one with my mobile disconnected due to Virgin Mobile being a totally incompetent company who cannot get a single thing with their service right since the day they took over my previous company ... leaving me without phone for over a week now! I am now havign to await on new simcards for some dumb ass reason not too mention an answer on why this happened. They better be prepared to give me something damn good for this screw up or my letter to the Telecommunications Ombudsman will be lodged regardless of having my service reconnected.

Also my girl is with her dad this year in Adelaide until mid January, so is just me this year. I did get a most tanfabulous shirt I have had my eye on for some time from a friend up here, a new favourite so pretty wrapped about that. I added some new music to Mi Playlist site, played Evony for a good portion of the day as is my latest addiction and then took myself out for a walk.

Hadnt intended to be a long one but turned out walking for just over 4 hrs hehehe. The beginning of my walk was kind of funny. Made me giggle at you guys. I got a few blocks and had a dark gentleman start trying to grab my attention for a chat. hell its xmas day why not humour him a bit, hahaha, within 2 minutes I he was asking where I lived and offered me a bit of him. I laughed and kept walkking. Thanks but no thanks. Not the present Im looking for today. I got another 15 minutes up the road and was offered a mango by another guy. I dont like mangoes either so declined his offer to and kept on walking. Sorry guys you just dont have what I want for christmas lol.

Down along the braodwater, through the park . It was full of families having bbq's and playing games, made me smile to see. Was nice, went and watched the boats for a while at the marina. The waters were so calm it was like glass to look at. The air was eerily till down at the Marina too which made it an awesome atmosphere to enjoy for a while. Headed down to the beach and watched the waves roll in. Had intended on going for a swim before I set off but I just ended up walking and watching the waves roll in.

Its been a while since Ive gone for such a long wander ... all the way I could only think how glad I am that I never ended up returning to Adelaide after all. In 16 years I NEVER enjoyed walking around there .. never appreciated the views (or lack of interesting things to see) ... was never inspired enough to get out and when I did I never really enjoyed my surroundings .. it was only ever my friends that made that place for me ... and as much as I miss them all very dearly I totally love being up here. I am very lucky to be living in a place where there are so many smalll yet beautiful things to enjoy. Thanks to my friends and my girl for helping give me the strength to make it through the past year and a half. Couldnt have done it without you.

So what plans are you all making to greet the new year? I think I will take myself for another walk new years as I did yesterday. I enjoyed it so much I think it may become a new thing to do more often. Its funny what you rediscover when you no longer have a car to get you about.

Have a great day whatever you are doing beautiful people.

Ciao for now